This past weekend I went to a wedding. Outside of the beauty of watching them become husband and wife, it had me thinking about commitment. What happens when you go from flirting with it to have it living on the insides, this willingness to attach, gambling with your heart, betting you will gain more than you could ever lose?

Writing feels that way to me. When I left a career a few years back, I was betting that I would not only brush past my fears, but that I would take them by the lapel, throw them to the ground and proceed to kick them into submission. It needed to be that serious for me. I saw how easy it could be. I could have spent the next 23 years at a job that admittedly had more lows than highs but I could have scraped by. I could always look forward to being in my mid-50’s and starting over again from there.

But I didn’t want to wait until I was worn down by years of stress and lack of fulfillment. The need to commit to finding out if I had what it took to do this far outweighed staying in misery, even if there was a level of comfort in that misery. I realize I am blessed to put in the work, even if half the time I am scared I am doing this only half-right or not at all. Even when it feels like no one is reading.

I will (and have) made my fair share of mistakes but I don’t have to live with wondering what could’ve happened if I never took a chance on myself.

If I never decided to commit.

Your turn: What have you recently committed to? How has it changed you?


  1. Lana says:

    Love it! I really want to commit to my real career! Just waiting for the right moment which I believe is now. Fear just keeps getting in the way!


    1. Kristina says:

      Thanks, Lana! The right moment is now. Sometimes, I think the hardest part is starting which you have already done, my talented friend.


  2. Kim McGuire says:

    Kristina…I have committed the year to quite a few things: getting more exercise, eating more healthily, blogging more frequently, and trying to increase my social media accounts. It’s not easy for me either but, like you, I’m not giving up. πŸ™‚


    1. Kristina says:

      That’s the spirit, Kim! Don’t give up! It never feels easy but it’s worth keeping the commitment. πŸ™‚


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